Lover come over

So this is an uncharacteristically somber post. I don't like being negative or in a funk but that is the state of mind I'm in at the moment and I will explain why. I recently asked God to open my eyes about some of the things that I needed to work on. Oh my, I should really be careful what I ask him for. I won't go into detail about what he specifically said but my response to his answer was OUCH! Hearing the truth stings at times. Like hitting a ball with a metal bat, in the middle of winter, the wrong way kind of stinging. (That sentence just made my fingers tingle a bit how about yours?) I have one habit in particular that gets me in trouble faster than anything else...I am hyper critical and condemning when it comes to myself. I constantly go over things that I've said or songs that I've performed and nit-pick them until I'm convinced that I just generally suck as a human being. I know, it's ridiculous. I don't suck as a human being. I promise I know that however, that doesn't stop me from believing it at times. God is really trying to build up my self-worth at the moment and my intent is to let him. I just need to let him be the lover of my soul. I am very familiar with the "Father" God concept but the whole "Lover" thing is eluding me at the moment. I only understand that word in the human sphere. A very broken and incomplete understanding at that. So applying that word to the spiritual part of my life is hard but I'm trying. That is what I am working towards. To feel loved.