Be a Mystery

I just want to begin this post with an I LOVE YOU ALL. Seriously, I love all you girls out there no matter what circumstance or stage of life you are in at the moment. You are beautiful and a daughter of the king. A princess who is adored by God Almighty. Please understand that.

Alright....Now that I have hopefully conveyed my love and respect for everyone I would like to get on to the subject that this post is about...

I want to talk about the way ladies dress and behave... Now it isn't that I'm asking for women to walk around like nuns. I'm just asking for some decorum. In all seriousness, if you have a cute figure then by all means honey wear something that flatters it!... Now see right there.... I said "Flatters it" not "Exposes it". I promise though, I do get it. Women want to feel beautiful. We long to be desired and pursued. There is nothing wrong with those feelings. We are wired that way. We have been wired that way by God. It's okay. What women were never wired to be however, is a doormat. And when you expose your body so also you expose your soul. Leaving nothing to the imagination speaks "I would rather have your hands than your heart" and men who would take advantage of that respond and those physical exchanges end up leaving you less of who you were before and usually ashamed. Sadly sometimes it also sets up a life long precedence for a sexual need over a satisfied heart.

I'm also speaking to those who keep their bits and pieces under wraps but still struggle with this.

 Listen, even if a woman isn't throwing her body out there for the whole male population to see her heart  can still communicate "Hey, I'm over here! Look at me! Please love me!" loud enough to where a man looking for an emotionally vulnerable woman will find her. You can be as emotionally exposed through behavior as much as exposed through clothing.

Behavior such as physical communication...


Touching a man is how you get most of them jump started...Yes I just said that... We all know it! Let's be honest with each other here.

Sex effects us differently in many ways...emotionally speaking...So be careful how you physically interact with a man. My amazing sisters please remember: You are the bride of Christ before you are ever anyone else's! How it must grieve our God's heart to know that we think so little of what he has deemed precious and one of kind. Ladies we are better than this. We are better than a one night stand. We are better than subjecting ourselves to emotional, verbal or physical abuse to keep a man and we are most definitely WORTHY of everything a healthy relationship has to offer. WE ARE A DAUGHTERS OF THE KING and by that fact alone we should sit comfortably knowing that we have the right ask to be treated that way! And what's wonderful is that there are men out there who will recognize that and live up to the challenge. There is a prince for every princess.

And please, please, please just know that I speak from a place of experience. I will never, ever write about something this passionately unless I have been through it! I am only saying what has gotten me out of that specific pit.

So relish the fact that you are hard to figure out to the opposite sex. It's supposed to be that way. We are supposed to be hard to get. Literally and figuratively speaking. We are art, meant to be admired and cherished. Sisters, we are the handiwork of the creator of the universe! We were not made to be consumed and then tossed aside. Our beauty and spirit were meant to be savored. Here is an example...

The Mona Lisa.

What makes Mona so engaging? What has stumped art historians for years upon years?

It's the mystery of who she really is!...(Granted they have a pretty good idea but it isn't an absolute.)

Think about that for a moment... You done thinking?... I'll give it another second...Now ask yourself; Would the Mona Lisa be as fun to look at if there were a placard beneath it in the Lourve stating the exact time, date and background information of the year and the female model Da vinci painted? Absolutely not! It would be in some ways not as endearing or lovely. It would almost be just another portrait done by Da Vinci. But...the thing that captures the imagination is what's underneath the surface.

"Who is she really?"
"How did she know Da Vinci?"
"What on earth is that smile all about?"
"Who is the smile for?" 

We will probably never know the concrete answers to these questions and thats what makes it so wonderful. That's what makes her so wonderful.

Final thought....You want a man who is willing to work all his life to figure out the depth and beauty of a woman's heart. Sex isn't complicated. Love is. And it is the perplexities of love and a woman's heart that has helped to shape our world from the beginning. What would we be without that? We wouldn't have the works of Shakespeare, Love song's, Some of the world's most precious artwork, etc...the list goes on and on. We need to believe that we were meant to have great sonnets written about and for us. I'm quite proud to be of my specific gender :) So I say to my fellow females; Be a mystery. It's worth it.

The Perfect Man...

Haha! Gotcha! I bet you thought this was going to be a description of what I think the perfect man is...well  get over it there isn't one and NEWSFLASH there isn't a perfect woman either. Yes we are to aspire to be like Christ (The one and only perfect human being) but we need to be fully aware that we are going to miss the mark. Then after we realize that about ourselves we should then give up the entire notion that our significant others are going to have miraculously good aim. We all mess up, we all hurt people's feeling (unintentionally and intentionally), we all forget to let people know how much we care, and sometimes we break their hearts. Is it rough out there? Yes. Is it worth it though? Yes. When we get out of our own way God can make beautiful things happen. Things like love. 

So in following with that final thought here is a video that I am listening to probably once every other day right now. Train is one of my favorite bands and this is one of my favorite songs of theirs. It's called "Marry Me" and oh my gosh it makes everything girly in me melt. Enjoy!

Living Fearlessly

I am here. I am alive. I am going to behave as such.

That is my new years resolution.

While that may be easy for most everybody else in the world it isn't for me. I have had issues with anxiety my entire life and they really kicked into high gear this past year for some reason. It was like I was wrapped up in this blanket of fear which coincidentally did nothing for my self esteem (or figure) and it kept me from living life the way that God had intended me to. Well no more. I want adventures and laughter and fresh air and a few stories to bring back once I'm done!

So my first fearless act (which was right before the new year) was to go ice skating for my birthday and I had a blast! I made myself do something I was afraid of doing and it was a success! Below is my favorite picture of the evening. It's blurry and fuzzy all except for my face which is cracking up because I almost fell...almost.

It may not be much but it's what works for me... and you know what? I like myself in this picture. Living fearlessly suits me I think ;)

The Soul of Music

So I took a trip tonight through my written past and found this little nugget. It was written after a worship team meeting I attended about four years ago. I hope you enjoy it!

The Soul of Music

I was reminded tonight by my music minister (props to Cmo:) of what a privilege it is to help lead others into worship with the father. I am honored that God has gifted me in the universal tongue. We may not all speak the same language but every human heart listens and reverberates to the deep and unmistakable sound of the soul of music. Before a child can understand words of comfort, he recognizes the emotion behind his mothers lullaby. His restless condition is only temporary when he begins to hear the love of his mother through her song. When we posture our hearts towards God in worship, he sings his lullaby through us. A glimmer of that moment of love can change everything. The lonely are comforted, the broken are mended, and captive hearts are set free. How could you not love and adore a God that created such a beautiful and effective means of communicating with his children? I am a broken and misshapen vessel and yet he chose me to be a part of this divine and crucial action. I am humbled and baffled when I pause to consider that fact. That is why nothing else matters when I am before my father. There is a bliss and a sense of euphoria that is inexplicable outside of his presence. There is where I find my refuge. That is where I find my fulfillment. God placed all of those things in music so that they could be discovered, understood, and transplanted into the soul of man forever linking the father to his children and forever giving us access to the lullaby he sings over us.

Zephaniah 3:17 
"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.